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    June 29

    madness

    Ok I know that I am crackers. But I just loved the picture of the lazy leopard and wanted to write about him. Inspiration comes from so many things. Yesterday I had need to write of a leopard who wasn't into pop music and hated ballads even more. That he slaughtered the poor humans, well not everyone's taste is the same. (thanks to webshots for the pic)
    Lesser is more I hear, but sometimes I like to play with words. And it did make a change from writing about sex starved housewives.
    I have been told my last story bordered on erotic fiction. Good job I didn't put the unabridged version on then- is all I can say. I think I have a naughty side that loves to shock people. Perhaps it's a back lash against respectability.
    Some people act out their thoughts and fantasies, writing about them gives me a freedom to express whatever I want without the danger that actual experience of them would bring.
    So frustrated housewife yesterday. Lounging, killer leopard today, I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings...
     
     
    June 28

    Lazy Leopard

    Lazy leopard, lounging about and feeling wonderfully free. Lethal and looselimbed, he lay hidden, high up in his tree. Time would present him with what he needed. But for now he waited, he really couldn't be bothered to do anything else. Why disturb his rest! all that he needed was food, sex, sport and lovely thick bark to cling to.

    Lazily he stretched a huge paw, and flexed his vicious claws. Retracted they appeared cute- yet let opportunity present itself and nothing would escape them. His fur was prized, but no one could catch him. Many a hunter had tried and many lay in eternal slumber. He kept ownership of his coat, sleek and spectacular it was awesome. The ladies couldn't resist. But ladies took a lot of effort and for now he wasn't moving anywhere.

    He watched, his amber eyes missing nothing. His sense of smell powerful. He was magnificent. Below him two humans came and spread a blanket beneath his tree. Their voices grated, they disturbed his peace. He listened. Unseen he remained silent as they unpacked a picnic. He lay close to the branch, flexed that killing machine again and slowly scratched viscious, grooves into the tree's surface.

    They went quiet, did he at last have their attention? Spiders remained away, birds knew better, small animals lived by using inborn survival skills-yet these stupid humans dared to invade his space. He stayed where he was, listening he tried not to become annoyed, his hunger sated they were lucky for that. Yet they were ignorant to his presence. He decided today he would be kind, before he went courting, or food seeking he wanted to rest.

    Did they thank the heavens with gratitude, did they show respect... no they ate greedily, they squashed insects for the hell of it. They woke him from his slumber with insane chatter. And dared to consummate their lust. But the final insult was the music box they switched on. He hated that tune with a vengeance, sorely tested now. With a graceful arch he stretched his back, limbered himself up nicely. And leapt down on them both and swiped her jugular with a vicious claw, while he bit his throat out. Then he calmly raised a paw and switched the offending tune off. He then slunk back up his tree and fell back into a deep,deep slumber...

    June 19

    Thunderstorm

    Outside it is dark, night has fallen in fact it fell hours ago. How did I not see it creeping up on me. But my tired eyes tell me it is so. I was just about to switch off and the heavens opened, the rain is battering against my windows. There is a mad thunderstorm happening right outside my window. Be a bit scary if it was inside with me! what a stupid comment I made. But thunder does that to me, it scrambles my thoughts and feelings up. Leaving me feeling strangely excited, but edgy.
    I feel my head tightening, the pressure outside squeezing my skin tight. Pain behind my eyes. Taut and tense is how I feel.
    Thunder always makes my heart jump, lightening though beautiful scares the hell out of me. I can hear the rain teeming down now, and still the thunder is crashing with mighty force. A summer storm in all its might.
    There is a crazy part of me that wishes I was there outside, empowered and free with the weather as it rages all around me, but immune to its danger.
    Time I think to switch my computer off before it joins in the mad explosive, crazy dance and crashes on me too.
    June 18

    gorgeous pressies=glam girly

    My daughter and her partner just got back from a holiday to America. And I got pressies, how excited was I ? off the scale kind of sums it up. Small packages usually equals jewelry and being a leo I love the stuff.

    So with eager fingers I opened the bag from macy's. My daughter knew it would tickle me, Macy's-well its like getting a harrods bag from england.

      Boxes too.

    The presents.I know the thought is the most important thing about getting presents. But the contents equalled the thought. Gorgeous ear-rings, glam ear-rings. They picked well for me. A huge 'Thankyou' to you both xxx.

     Its hard to see how lovely they are from webcam pictures. But they are gorgeous. Now all I need is the occasion to wear them...

    Here is the practice run.

       

    June 15

    Going girly

    Could the weather be any worse! Torrential downpour and flooding alerts. It isn't bank holiday, so why the rain? It had to be because I was having my hair done today.
    I had a free haircut at a local trendy hair-salon a couple of weeks ago, and it was fantastic so I booked for a colour today.
     
    Two and half hours later I left the salon with super swishy, layered hair. With shades of red and blonde scattered throughout. I was a bit worried because she picked a vibrant red as one of the colours. But I left it in her capable hands (actually I was a teeny bit scared, nay terrified that i'd end up with Zandra Rhodes hair)
    Wacky designers can get away with outrageously coloured hair. But not Mrs So and So from down the street!
    I loved it, i've even booked another appointment for 4 weeks time! I could get used to this lifestyle, next I will be having manicures and facials. I do think I have to be careful though, all this pampering and these feminising things are making me a tad girly.
    Get me in PINK! yes it's me, im actually wearing pink.
    June 06

    Sexual Equality- end

    I needed some new underwear; my men would have to learn to take more care when ripping it from my delicious body. You could say it ticked the boxes of both my favourite hobbies. So I found myself here in this expensive but exclusive lingerie shop. You wouldn’t find this in mainstream stores. It catered to everyone’s taste, silk, leather and lace. Some were exquisite, or shocking, some practical while some items were just tasteless. White for the pure among us, black and red for the tarty inclined. I held both sets of colours and a beautiful, delicate negligee set. Blue silk, it clung seductively to my curves, its splits hiding nothing. Pure silk it whispered coolly against my skin as I moved. This I decided was for me. Every woman should be sexy for herself, before she ever thought about her man, or men in my case. I paid by credit card, my bonus well spent and walked into the coffee shop next door.

    I sat drinking a latte, thinking that maybe I would enjoy a quiet night in alone for a change. But looking at the man sat at the next table, watching me I was beginning to have second thoughts. My mind drifted to my shopping. I watched his face as I took out the black and red panties, my hands caressed the satin, these would be my barely there briefs! His eyes followed my hands, his face registered disbelief as he realised what my hands were caressing. He held the coffee un-touched before him, he watched me place it back in the bag. Waiting to see what else I brought out.

    I walked down the street heading for the car-park. I heard him cough, heard his indecision. I had known he would follow me. I slowed down as I approached my car, he knew it was now or never so he said “hello, you left this” He held the bag containing the underwear I had been teasing him with.

    “So I did, how forgetful of me” I smiled. He held it before him, blushing. He was nervous. It was sweet I’d forgotten what that was like.

    He said “your place?” Not that nervous I thought as I smiled to myself. “No yours”

    His flat wasn’t that far, a city centre one with parking, not bad I was impressed. I pulled in beside him.

    I was bemused he was a strange contradiction of a man. We went up in the lift and he held my hand. Fumbling with his keys he got the door open, it was as though he couldn’t quite believe his luck. His place was immaculate, nothing out of place, expensive gadgets and modern furnishings. He was awkward, I had the feeling that if I had put my usual act on it would have deflated him. So I left the moves to him. We kissed, almost tenderly, his hands embracing my face he leaned in again and kissed me, worshiping my lips, my mouth, my face with his lips. Now I was the one who felt awkward.

    I pulled back and started to pull his clothes from him, went to unzip him. But he stopped my hand then he was kissing me again. I felt like I was losing myself, I was certainly losing control. I stopped and pulled away from him. He waited, both of us breathing hard. Then he reached up and moved a strand of hair from my eyes. His hand moved gently down my face, traced my lips with tentative fingers. It was now or never-did I go or did I stay?

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    Her name is Emily, she sat before her computer screen but her mind was blank. Think, Emily what would she do? Of course she would stay, she would take the control back, and seduce him, and then walk away. She watched the words pour onto her screen, her fingers a blur as the words filled her screen. Once again Emily felt herself descend into the world of her character.

    Yes she did say her character, she is not the sexually, confident woman portrayed within her story. But plain Emily Brown, who lives alone with her husband, a man who barely knows she exists. Her sex-life is non existant, she can't remember the last time she was touched in an intimate way. She is everything her nymphomaniac character isn't. One day she dreamt the character up, and made her visible and equal. A fantasy life, to take her away from her own drab existence.

    What must it be like to be desirable? To excite men and to have no principles, or morals about sex. To think and act as a male does and to be his equal in all things.

    Today Emily decided to become her alter-ego...

    Her hair coloured and cut into a smooth, sleek and sexy bob. She dressed as she believed a sexually confident woman would. Tight jeans and a barely there turquoise top. High heels completed her look; no she thought, it's completed by the teeniest froth of a g-string. It's the only underwear she is wearing. Her palms are sweating, wiping them she hopes she hasn't smudged her make-up. Hopes she has applied it correctly. It wasn't as easy as she thought it would be, copying it from a magazine. The model posing from the glossy page looked beautiful, trying to convince herself that she looked as good wasn't working. So she threw the magazine in the bin. She would do.

    As she looked in the mirror, she said " goodbye Emily, hello Kat" The woman looking back at her was unrecognisable. Her husband was away, his scorn or laughter would have been too much to bear. Shoulders up, confidence embraced and she was on her way...

     

     

    June 02

    Sexual Equality1

    The handle turned and the door opened, we couldn’t believe our luck. The corridor beyond was dark and empty, it would do. The music was still deafening here, but we didn’t care about that. I had no fear of being caught, it wouldn’t take long. He was faceless and nameless, I didn’t need familiarity. The sex was hot and raw, even faster than usual. One last kiss and I was gone, checking out new men, before he had even finished zipping his fly.

    There was no need for pretence here. We’d both got what we wanted-it scratched an itch but satisfaction it wasn’t. I went into the toilets, tidied my smudged makeup and combed my hair. If he had been outside waiting I wouldn’t have recognised him.

    It was difficult to remember my slip into promiscuity, but I had to admit I was letting my standards slip. Although women thought themselves to be equal in everything- sexual equality was still a long way off. Women had burned their bras to get us here, but men still held onto old fashioned beliefs, they still had double standards. We had begun to wear male characteristics, but the fit was all wrong. My choice of sexual freedom had blurred any boundaries that I had once known. The only rule I kept to, was condoms.

    Downing a glass of vodka and tonic to get the taste of his mouth from mine, I rejoined my group. Knowing eyes watched me, sniggers and whispers purposely loud enough to hear, though I chose to ignore them. I just didn’t care. Tomorrow I would be in a different room, amidst a new group of people. Making small-talk, having a good time, but never knowing love or wanting it. 

    Just a need for uncomplicated sex; who cared about a reputation, I could always build a new one when I needed it.

    The rest of the evening passed in its usual way, we got drunker, getting louder and laughing at everything and nothing. Until we were finally kicked out of the club and then home…

    Home at last and the only thing I wanted was sleep. I kicked off my shoes, dropped my coat onto the chair, didn’t notice as it slid to the floor and made my way upstairs. Brushed my teeth, pondered over whether I could be bothered to take my make-up off. Decided I didn’t care. The rest of my clothes made a path-way to my bed.

    The bed seemed so inviting; my bed-it soothed and called me. Flopping down onto it, naked I crawled beneath the duvet, pulling it tightly around me. In spite of feeling rough and with the walls spinning madly around me, I was soon asleep.

    The sound of the phone ringing woke me. I had slept through the alarm and was late for work. 1471 soon confirmed it was them. My head pounded, I thought briefly on a promise of sobriety but knew I wouldn’t keep to it. Thought briefly too on a vow of celibacy, my body ached and alarmingly I couldn’t remember if, or who I’d had sex with. But now wasn’t the time to worry about that, if I didn’t get moving I would not only be hung over but unemployed too. to be continued

    more of the story. Not sure if it was too rude, but i couldn't get into my space. So i'm censoring it, erotic stories are far too hot for spaces :)

    I had wanted this man for so long, I had almost given up hope of having him. You see the trouble is he is already attached! But after my feminine wiles had wrapped their charms around him, it was inevitable that he would fall at my feet, how could he resist me! So we ended up back at his place, I think the idea of doing something illicit excited him.

    He could hardly wait to get me through the door, before trying to drag my clothes off. I laughed as I pushed him from me and looked his place over. It was nice, not too bachelor-paddish! Obviously his partner didn’t live with him.

    We started kissing, kissing that lasted for hours, or so it felt like. He was hot, as I’d always imagined him to be. I started to undress him, he was happy to let me. His body was gorgeous, slender with long, lean muscles, and hard all over. He begged to be touched- how could I not…

    Tonight I wanted comfort, no alcohol needed. The comfort I desired was not the cosy, slippers kind. I meant comfort as in his bed. So I asked where the bedroom was.

    By now my mind was far from what the décor of his room looked like. We were of a similar height, eyes looked into eyes. His stare promised so much, I looked away before him.

    My shoes lay where I had left them, he pulled my skirt down. My blouse had fiddly buttons, so he just pulled, buttons flew everywhere. Both of us eager now that passion had taken control, hands and mouth’s hungry. I could barely breathe, but who needed to when it felt like this.

    His telephone rang; he didn’t pause for a second, his answer machine kicked in. We carried on having passionate sex, while his girlfriend said “hi love, just called to say I love you, missing you, ring me as soon as you get in” So much for true love, his body thrust into mine as she left her message of love.

    We finished, he wrapped me in his arms. I could feel the moment moving towards somewhere I didn’t want to be.  As the heat of the moment cooled down, I found myself switching off, wanting nothing more than to be gone from here. The condom had done its trick it wasn’t pregnancy I feared, but disease.  It lay thrown on the floor, my buttons scattered beside it.

    Coming from the bathroom I heard him in the kitchen making coffee, I quietly slipped out of his front door. I left my shoes, barefoot I walked down the path to the waiting taxi. My mind already gone from here and the havoc I would be leaving behind. I wiped his telephone number from my mobile as the cab drove me home.

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    My life was beginning to read like the confessions of a nymphomaniac! But it was only the smallest snapshots taken from a very busy life. My days were similar to everyone else, in that I worked hard and I played hard. My familial duties were carried out with the minimum of fuss. In fact the diary of my life would probably read similar to most people; I just seemed to have more sex than others and my amoral life was immensely enjoyable.

    In fact my last tryst had been damn good! He was not only fit, but he knew exactly what to do, if it wasn’t that I sensed he liked emotional attachment too, I maybe would have gone back for seconds. Though I regretted leaving my shoes, I liked them a lot. Ok so they weren’t Jimmy Choo’s but they’d still cost enough. I‘d freaked out at his moment of intimacy, and couldn’t remember where I had left them I just wanted to be away. Anyway shoes like men were replaceable.

     Now it was another day and a different man, variety really is the spice of life. I had taken a day off work, though you could say I was still working. My boss was the man whose knees I now knelt between, he wasn’t attractive but I was drawn to the power he wielded. He ran his company with an iron fist, those who worked hard where well paid. And I had no doubt I would receive a huge bonus for this. Not that I equated sex for money, just that I embraced using my sexuality to take me places. Today it was between his knees in my flat, a week ago it was Paris in a four star hotel.

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    So back to my present predicament, on the floor, on my knees. It was hard on them though I knelt on plush carpet,  but I wasn't thinking of that, my mind was otherwise occupied...
     
    This man was magnificent in so many ways. I craved him and had no intention of stopping this. Time with him was never boring his mind was like quick-silver, fluid and secret, ever changing. He liked a woman who knew her own mind, but who was able to allow it to bend to his. Sometimes I had to bite my tongue when in his company, mostly though I enjoyed him taking the lead. I also didn't look forward to unemployment! And so for now I allowed it to happen.
     
    He had absolute control, nothing equal here, he was my one exception. I had to stay here until he allowed me to move, not that I didn’t enjoy being between his knees. We both enjoyed this arrangement and I enjoyed playing it to his rules, or I wouldn’t have done it. Life was too short to do something you regretted.
    It was tiring though, sometimes he liked me to bring him to the edge, and then pull back- he could last for ages! I was glad when I felt him move me from between his legs. He lay me down and I knew that now it was my turn, to him my satisfaction was part of his control and I had no argument with that. Let my satisfaction begin… And satisfaction was what I got... But this man made me work, I was exhausted when I let him out of my flat.
     
    I ran a bath. Wondering how I would spend my bonus. A part of me, the prudent and scared part told me to save it. The other part that lived for today, said what the hell-enjoy it and spend it. It looked as though I was hitting the shops after my bath. I felt myself perking up no-end.
    Exhaustion-what was that? I thought as I slid beneath the warm scented water.
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    My bath finished, I put the finishing touches to my make-up. Made a mental note that my roots needed doing, but accepted that I didn’t look bad for a woman in her late forties and I still worked in all the right places Sex definitely got better the older you got. But why was it that just as you were beginning to appreciate how good sex could be, age kicked in and decided to take away those sweet and sexy hormones. Perhaps that was why I craved sexual intimacy so much- use it before you lose it theory.

    I always felt a bit ruffled after getting down and dirty, with my boss, a battle raged in me about my behaviour. Principles tended to fade when life coloured them and I was beginning to believe sexual equality was a myth. There was still a huge gap in the thinking of men’s attitudes to women who did- Bad girls. While those who waited were still classed as good girls, it was ok to have fun with bad girls but they only married the good. My boss would never marry me, even if he was single. But then would I really want to marry a conceited, chauvinist, cheating man? You bet I wouldn’t…I think I was becoming as bad as the men I condemned, and dare I say it having the same double standards as men!

    Though I smiled  at the thought, that eventually role reversal would happen. And all those good girls would become bad, wasn't I living proof of this! And all those bad girls would morph into good girls. But god help us from the reformed bad, there was no one more hypocritical than the bad turned good…

    Too much thinking, sex with my boss always made me guilty of that, I guess it was a way of deflecting from my behaviour with him.

    My smile back on my face, I was once again the confident, couldn’t care less woman with attitude!

    The drive into the city was uneventful. I ignored my mobile and listened to the loud, music playing. This afternoon was for me alone. I loved shopping nearly as much as I loved sex and I was about to tick them both from my list of to-do things.

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