I deliberated as to whether to post this. But it seems I need to wear specs when reading. Now I wonder why that sent me into a complete state of depression etc, could be because the optician said, oh it's just a wear and tear thing, an age thing!

She mentioned that blasphemous subject, getting old! Ok I have no problem aging, facially-wise it's kind of improving. Bodily well, things hang lower, but that's no problem, just hoike everything up higher :)

But the realisation that age can do things, like make your eyes not work as well, or your gums recede( a whole other story lol) or your bones just ache a bit more. Those things of wear and tear...

I guess I've hid the grey hair, hallelujah for casting! a hair dye not a role I'm applying for...

Ok back to me and my specs, yes I need them, only if the print is small,but still- I now have two pairs of glasses in my bag. Which made me think, I love wearing sun-glasses, so why so modest and embarrassed at reading specs?

The cam came out, to try and take a pic of me and after taking 500 and still not finding one. And when I did,  would I be brave enough to put it on here ? oh well here goes...

I am feeling very saintly, my love of fruit and vegetables has been rekindled, and I am continuing with my fitness plans the key is slow and steady with the exercise. 15 mins daily last week (I know it' s  nothing but have to start somewhere lol) This week 20 mins daily, and I am going to do my yoga tape once too. My problem has always been trying to do everything at once, this time I will try and keep it regular.

It's a week since I started at the slimming club and its hard to note any difference. But I can say all the fruit I have been scoffing as opposed to the cakes, fish & chips and what is that stuff?? hmm chocolate. Has shown a marked difference is my skin, it is looking clear and healthy, very peachy looking :)

Yummy I am telling myself as I tuck into my melon, my walk is done, and the shopping. Gosh I can feel my halo shining brightly! Combining the two makes it easier, or so I though until coming home today with shopping bags, thinking isn't it a lovely autumn day. That was until the heavens opened. I arrived home dripping wet, asthmatic and pretty much like a bedraggled rat. Bit big to be a rat and I have no tail, but you know what I mean!

So this healthy lark is going good, too soon to be bored but I am determined to succeed anyway, the thought of spending another summer hidden under my coat is unbearable. Curvy and breathing is what I am aspiring to...

That's not me that I am describing, or maybe it is, a broken down, battered old nag with the realisation I can still be a healthy, hot, sexy, fit filly if I could only be bothered to get up of my backside and do something about it.

To any one who knows me, one of my most regular phrases is ' I am finally going on that diet and I am going to lose 10 stone and become athletic enough to be a competitor in the Olympics'

Ok I exaggerated. the Olympics fitness level will take another year :)

So this Monday I have an appointment at the docs, when you are told to call in and see the doc for a mere cholesterol test result, you know it's high! which means I can't hide anymore from the facts. I need to look at my health as you would for someone you loved, I know that if you treated anyone else as I treat myself, it would be termed abuse.

So erm no I won't say diet, I will say it's time to eat healthy and lowfat. But then I know, there is no point doing that if you don't move your body.

My asthma has increased a lot, it can only be the migraine med's, which means it effects my mobilty. So I thought why not try no migraine med's and see what happens? No side effects anymore, because I am fed up with the list they bring.

So my old nag of I am too fat, has become self-fulfilling. And I know now what has to be done. Watch this space!